The door opened, in walked my brother terrified
Teary eyed, I'm wide open only to hear our father died
It's not true, I'm hopin'
I need some air, I'm choking
Get me off this ride, it's like goin
Feeling I'm lost, I'm frozen
Suspended in mid-traumatized state
Why I'm chosen for this fate, I don't know
Head shakes back and forth, emotional, unsociable
Not speakin, remaining silent cuz I'm weak
And deep inside I freakin' want my father back, I need him
Why's God cheatin?
Taking half of two that gave me life
My mind, place, and thought
Never longer can I sleep at night
And I'm feeling like insecure, and what's my future lookin like?
I ain't dealt with death before, age eleven, I can't take no more
Hands on the floor cuz my stomach's feelin sick
And I was mad at the Lord because he took him all too quick
That day, on his way to pick me up he never made it
Blamed it all on myself before I dwell to self-hatred
On a path for destruct, many thought I wouldn't make it
I hated the way I feel but I just can't seem to shake it
Somebody take it away, this mad situation
My world is breaking and I feel about to cave in
I try to take it all in after it all settled
I couldn't begin accepting you were gone
But understood (X2)
Hey, Dad, I miss you
For everyday gone and for the rest of my life
I try to remain strong until we reunite
Live on, your memory from the seeds you planted gently
Thanks for being there for me, and all the time you spent with me
Love sent from me, If I could only have that day back
To sit down and rap, through the breeze, and have a chat
The fact still remains, still later, on the day I have to meet our maker
I write my feelings on the paper for now
Along with hope course, much played
I see you as I drive by
I feel you, like your presence is there
I stop, and I stare.
I see the pictures of days we shared.
Well aware that you cared.
Making sure I was prepared for life;
The hardships, the struggle, the god ships, and the troubles that come with it
Always kept my lifted, I gripped it to my heart, everything you taught me
My dad, my hero... you have my love for all eternity
I try to take it all in after it all settled
I couldn't begin accepting you were gone
But understood (X5)
